As I sit here and watch the boys work together to put together a puzzle and race cars on their tracks I can't help but think of how much has changed and how much is going to change.  Although....three children three and under takes quite a bit of organization and patience - we are so blessed!  I can only imagine how things are going to be once we get the girls here!  The boys seem so excited to have their sisters home!  They have helped get so many things ready -  I can not wait to see them all together.

Growing up my father used to tell me 'you will never know until you have children of your own'.  Oh how true he was.  Now today, three years to the day, after his passing I would do anything to have him tell me advice about parenting. 

I still with all my heart believe that all three boys are here because of him.  The miracles that happened right after his passing couldn't be by chance.  I think of him every.single.day and I know that will always be.  I look at each of the kids and see him through them in so many different ways.  I still have his cell phone number programed in my phone, his program from his services hung on our fridge. 

Days have turned into weeks and weeks into months and months into years and it still hurts as much as it did that day.  I strive to keep his spirit alive and will no matter how much time passes. 

Until the day we meet again I will cherish what I have here on earth-the blessings that I have been given-and the lessons I am meant to learn.  I love and miss you more than words can say dad!